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Misara's Royal Tum by Doom-san Misara's Royal Tum :icondoom-san:Doom-san 163 14 Dairy Wolf Sushiko by Doom-san
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Dairy Wolf Sushiko :icondoom-san:Doom-san 180 21
Mittens Revisited by Doom-san Mittens Revisited :icondoom-san:Doom-san 69 10 Drawpile - Arynne by Doom-san Drawpile - Arynne :icondoom-san:Doom-san 60 13 Game Concept Art - Cerica, Ice/Snow Demon by Doom-san Game Concept Art - Cerica, Ice/Snow Demon :icondoom-san:Doom-san 51 15 Mori Exercise by Doom-san Mori Exercise :icondoom-san:Doom-san 69 10 Etreya, Half-Centaur by Doom-san Etreya, Half-Centaur :icondoom-san:Doom-san 81 6 Relevae - Brunicus' ID Pic by Doom-san
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Relevae - Brunicus' ID Pic :icondoom-san:Doom-san 99 7
Game Concept Art - Body Structure Test by Doom-san
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Game Concept Art - Body Structure Test :icondoom-san:Doom-san 21 10
Xeno Demon Concept Sketch by Doom-san
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Xeno Demon Concept Sketch :icondoom-san:Doom-san 62 9
Small but Lovable - Urd by Doom-san Small but Lovable - Urd :icondoom-san:Doom-san 86 18 Xen'thar Casual Dress by Doom-san
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Xen'thar Casual Dress :icondoom-san:Doom-san 70 10
Life Is Butts by Doom-san
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Life Is Butts :icondoom-san:Doom-san 99 13
Vine Witch Nephina by Doom-san Vine Witch Nephina :icondoom-san:Doom-san 92 23 Delicious Birthday Heresy by Doom-san Delicious Birthday Heresy :icondoom-san:Doom-san 134 31 Alien Breeder Rhi'kka - Character Concept Sketch by Doom-san
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Well, I just wanted to give a heads up that I might be pretty unstable for the next while.

My family dog (admittedly, she's ancient as Golden Retrievers go) is nearly 15 and has a lump in her mouth that appears to have caused an abscessed tooth, and the abscessed tooth appears to have caused swelling in her cheek, which has swollen her eye shut. She has surgery on (hopefully) Wednesday, when the first doctor we talked to said she should get it operated on on Monday if we can. She has since started pawing her eye and it has started bleeding. As I am kind of a hypochondriac, I worry that she won't even last that long.

As a cheery Father's Day exercise, my sister (who my dad is visiting for the evening, after I had lunch with him today) tried to talk him out of spending the money, just as he had finally talked himself into that it could be worth paying for the surgery because at the rate she's been, she might last another year or two? (seems insane, but she's been very stable for years, other than this)

I honestly have no idea what's even going to happen any more.
I blamed my sister after I heard she said that.
I feel like I'd blame myself if I didn't pay for it if they refused to, even though I can't really afford it either.
I don't know how much longer she'd live if we do nothing. I don't know how much longer she'd live if we did fix this.
There's always the chance her organs aren't in good enough shape for surgery anyway, because her vet doc took bloodwork when we were there on Friday, to check if she can even take surgery in her condition, since she's so old.

I just.... know that no matter what way this situation goes, I am going to be a major mess.
This dog was my best friend through some VERY dark years of my life, and while I acknowledge that she can't go on forever, I know it is going to hurt me a LOT to lose her...

When my grandmother died, it was the start of a long process of me trying to let go of the past, which I clung to too strongly because of the near absolute lack of good things in my life in recent years (and bad health issues ; w ; ) compared to the happier (albeit still moderately depressing) years of my childhood.

I don't even know if this is some sort of whatever-point life crisis I'm going through at this point, just that I know that my old identity from my childhood has to die, for the adult me to flourish. ...And it pains me to think that losing my dog would need to be part of that...

(side-note, it was my 30th birthday this year on February 13th. Not to be even more of a downer but it was an extremely depressing birthday for me, in part because pretty much everyone I did stuff for last year forgot I even existed, and turning 30 is depressing for me to begin with, with all these health issues and lack of employment because of said health issues... As if the world needed me to feel even more alone by killing off my furry best friend dog after that mess... )


...So, yeah.
Just a heads up to anyone out there if anyone actually reads this shit: "I'm not saying I'm going to do anything because I don't see myself as that kind of person, but pretend I'm on suicide watch, just in case" =w=;;

AKA: "I'm really struggling right now and admit that I need all the friends I can get right now, while generally assuming I have none."

So yeah.
That's my life.
How are you?

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Well, dog had surgery today. Last we've heard is that she woke up about half an hour or so ago, but that she won't be ready to pick up until like another half an hour or so from now.

(She had bloodwork and a culture sample to see if she has cancer. Both results came back clean on Monday, so she was good for surgery)

Hopefully no complications in the next few days, but we're not in the clear yet.
Well, I just wanted to give a heads up that I might be pretty unstable for the next while.

A heads upWell, I just wanted to give a heads up that I might be pretty unstable for the next while.
My family dog (admittedly, she's ancient as Golden Retrievers go) is nearly 15 and has a lump in her mouth that appears to have caused an abscessed tooth, and the abscessed tooth appears to have caused swelling in her cheek, which has swollen her eye shut. She has surgery on (hopefully) Wednesday, when the first doctor we talked to said she should get it operated on on Monday if we can. She has since started pawing her eye and it has started bleeding. As I am kind of a hypochondriac, I worry that she won't even last that long.
As a cheery Father's Day exercise, my sister (who my dad is visiting for the evening, after I had lunch with him today) tried to talk him out of spending the money, just as he had finally talked himself into that it could be worth paying for the surgery because at the rate she's been, she might last another year or two? (seems insane, but she's been very stable for years, o
 /  A heads upWell, I just wanted to give a heads up that I might be pretty unstable for the next while.
My family dog (admittedly, she's ancient as Golden Retrievers go) is nearly 15 and has a lump in her mouth that appears to have caused an abscessed tooth, and the abscessed tooth appears to have caused swelling in her cheek, which has swollen her eye shut. She has surgery on (hopefully) Wednesday, when the first doctor we talked to said she should get it operated on on Monday if we can. She has since started pawing her eye and it has started bleeding. As I am kind of a hypochondriac, I worry that she won't even last that long.
As a cheery Father's Day exercise, my sister (who my dad is visiting for the evening, after I had lunch with him today) tried to talk him out of spending the money, just as he had finally talked himself into that it could be worth paying for the surgery because at the rate she's been, she might last another year or two? (seems insane, but she's been very stable for years, o
 
linking the journal from both accounts, if it matters

(I also probably need all the friends I can get right now, since I admit as well that I am going to be in a very, VERY dark place for the next while if things don't turn around...)
Waugh... Every day this past week, I've woke up and felt like I haven't slept long enough, and had to nap for like an hour after being up for a bit.
This morning I nearly fell asleep standing, waiting for the microwave to reheat my food @ A @ ;;
*next day; after sleeping for 9 1/2 hours after being home for like 15 minutes*
Good to be home! ...Siiiick Daaaay! >o<;
Trip went well. Leaving for the airport in about an hour. ...But I've been getting over being sick the past couple days >~>;; (hopefully not contagious any more >A>;;;, )

I have a series of small "game dev blogs" I am putting together. Where should I post them? (more info at doom-san.deviantart.com/journa…

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:iconzelda3k:
zelda3k Featured By Owner May 8, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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Goku-Senpai Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2017
030 i didnt know you because a watcher i loves your works
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:icondoom-san:
Doom-san Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2017  Student Digital Artist
umm.. Thank you? : 3?
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Goku-Senpai Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2017
030 b
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ZeroConfidence Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
:iconpartycannonplz: Happy Birthday! Ha ha! =D :iconcakeplz: 
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Doom-san Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thank you!! ^__^
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Hamma-of-RammaH Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday man :aww:
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Doom-san Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thanks Hamma : 3
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OneWingedLegend Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday dude! Hope you had a wonderful day and may this year be the best ever!
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Doom-san Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thanks ^_^
Day went alright in the end, but was pretty low-key.
Here's hoping. Been a rough past couple years.
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